Writing is Good Therapy: Steven John Krantz Nightmare.

This blog is about how a man can lie to manipulate and hurt people. Basically he is not a nice man. It is better that I write this blog, than buy a gun to blow his head off.

I thought I had finally met the love of my life, Steven J. Krantz. He said he was going through divorce which would end in a few weeks. He emphasized that he would always love his wife, but he really was not in love with her. He actually said he loved me and asked permission to enter my love. I was hesitant, but he re-assured me he cared. He appears to be the ideal professional. He is the vice president of his company's IT department The company, Cymetrix Corporation, customizes technology to assist hospitals in coordinating their revenue cycles. The corporate office is in Irvine, California. Actually, Steve is a sociopath who lies and manipulates. He does not care about what happens after he has done all his misdeeds. Basically he is not a nice man. He is a selfish little boy, who is only going through the motions of being a man. He will never emotionally grow up. Plus he is a master manipulator. He never fully explained the status of his divorce/marriage to his wife Kimberly. Kimberly is the Senior Communications Manager for Boeing, in Seal Beach, CA. He also was upset that I discovered he had a girlfriend of 10 years named Lori Reattoire, who lives in Opal, Virginia. I am actually ten years older than she is, but one would think by appearance that I am ten years younger. Yes, I was hurt when Steve did not talk to me, and he seemed concerned that I knew about this Lori. I had feelings for him that were real. They were real because, Steve had expressed his unconditional love for me. He asked permission to enter my life and said he would always love me forever. I was what he really wanted in his life. I have had two people who with no compassion tell me to move on, his sister, who happens to be named Laurie, and the other a friend. Yes, I called Steve, but I was trying to set the record straight about his sexual activities, since I discovered he had several ads on Gay Men’s sites.On one in addition to his profile and photograph, he posted a picture of his penis. His boss a Sr. Vice President knows about Steve's behavior, but as we know White Guys in the "Good Old Boy Network" get away with outlandish and immoral behavior. His wife Kimberly also knows because I mailed the pictures I found on the Internet to her job at Boeing. Because, of the uncertainty, it is necessary for me to undergo AIDS testing, for another three months. This has been such a horrific experience, that I have had panic attacks and been treated by a doctor. I never suffered from them in the past. I hope that I will be fine. These uncaring people including Steve or Stratsteve, his user name on many websites, do not realize that AIDS is a life threatening disease that will kill you. I am dealing with Stratsteve, a man who I did not know, not Steve the loving, kind man who held me in his arms.

Wife, (Click Here) Sister, Girlfriends, His employer(Cymetrix Corporation), Orange County Superior Court: Steven's Chain of Fools

We were all links in Steven John Krantz's "Chain of Fools". He is quite the manipulator. The pictures I found of him on two gay men's websites were horrible discoveries to make regarding someone that I loved. His profiles and language were very explicit on what he was and what type of partner he wanted. In reality, he was a married man who was on the down low and also had girlfriends. How many more affairs and lies will Kimberly Krantz tolerate before she finally has had enough. I'm sure if she checked his cell phone bill, she would find that he has been calling his Trailer Park girlfriend Lori Reattoire. She did visit California maybe last February. Kimberly is married to a man who has no balls and no scruples. How many of you women would have stayed with a man who had so many affairs? Then again, if you are Kimberly having a good life and she is only worried about her Boeing security clearance, then it works for her.

A Vice President of Cymetrix knew about Steve's x-rated pictures on the Internet, but apparently kept it quiet. It only shows that if you are a White Guy, you can get away with immoral behavior.

Waking Up From The Nightmare

Going through the roughest part of the "nightmare" affected me physically and emotionally. From December to about March I had anxiety attacks which affected me physically. There were days where I had a hard time with breathing,stomach aches, and severe headaches, with dizziness. Emotionally, I felt so detached after discovering someone I loved had a disturbing background. It was made worst,since Steven Krantz would not talk to me about his sexual history, which could have affected my future. He was not concerned about my welfare, only covering up his lies. His sister, Laurie Krantz, intervened with threats for me to stop contacting him and to remove this blog and a post on Don't Date Him Girl (http://dontdatehimgirl.com/posts/132590/. Also his mistress, Lori Reattoire of Opal, VA, would make insults aimed at me on her My Space website. She had the audacity to have a picture featuring pamphlets about AIDS on her site, making fun of my horrific situation. I stopped looking at her website for months.
The mistress was hinting that I could be sued for slander and defamation. One would think that she would want to stay out of this and keep a low profile. Again she apparently does not have a man of her own after 10 years of hanging out with Steven. Of course I noted on this blog that slander and defamation pertain to statements that are not true. Of course, Steve did have his picture on several regular dating sites, plus two gay men's site, plus a forum of regular men who had an interest in "men" relationships. His wife, Kimberly Krantz has copies of the websites. Obviously, he was cheating on his wife, with me and Lori, the mistress. These were not fabricated statements.

Thank goodness I worked with a therapist to help me get through this inhuman experience. I needed help dealing with a man and his family, plus a so called friend who were out to hurt me further. I have a feeling that these individuals in the past or present have received professional help because of their unsettled lives and the unnecessary pain they have inflicted on others throughout the years.

What Happened?

Steven John is the man who fell in love with me and the man I respect. Stratsteve is someone who is totally different. Steven John knows how to talk to me. His warm brown eye reassured me about Life. He does not need his sister or an attorney to deal with me. Steven John is a real man who made me feel like a woman and made the World safe.

Time For.....

Many people in these so called modern times have no respect for the past. From the past, one learns so that you can go forward. To those who are accustomed to using the new cliché "Moving On", they are brash with no respect to others feelings. In addition, there are individuals that have no respect for relationships because they consider relationships as disposable commodities. These horrible people do not care whom they hurt and have no remorse. They think that they are safe by not dealing with the past or their previous bad deeds. These confused people cause havoc for those in their lives. What is worst is they manipulate others to believe them.
Those naive people become toys to further another's life of deception and games.
I do not like games and I do not play them.

I Have An Agenda To Get Through This Nightmare

I created this electronic journal to help me through a crisis. I had to deal with losing someone I loved (he also loved me), his lies and the possibility of being infected with a disease. My second HIV/AIDS test takes place in a month. Those who read my posts or who actually know me have given me courage to prepare for a new life and a great future. My writings are the truth. I have never threatened Steve Krantz or had any wish to harm him. However, sometimes the Truth can be more painful than a knife wound. Steven's sister Laurie has orchestrated legal action in trying to shut down this weblog. She needs to mind her own business and let her 50 year old brother resolve his problems. For some illogical reason, she feels someone "has to monitor" what I write. My question is who might that be? I think the only people who would be concerned would be the FBI, CIA, and possibly Interpol (an international law enforcement agency). Since I am not planning any acts of terrorism domestically or worldwide, I do not think these agencies would need to monitor constantly my weblog about a cheating husband and his affairs. She is concerned that I am spending all my days writing my weblog. Since I read and write English fairly well, it only takes about 10 minutes to write my blurbs. I do spend most of my time coordinating other activities that improve my quality of life. My life is "all about me" not the Family von Krapp-on-others. I am not obsessed with Steven Krantz, but there may be others who spend their time concerned about his life. I need to write about my specific experience with him and my feelings as I go through this nightmare.

Again thank you all for being supportive. It is deeply appreciated. I am also fortunate to live in America where the Constitution protects its citizens’ right to the First Amendment.

Always For Real

When I made all these discoveries, you simply could have talked to me face to face. I am a very understanding woman, who had came to know you as a nice man. Nevertheless, you let your sister and mistress become involve, which should have been a personal situation between us. In the beginning, you had a reason to let me into your life. If you were still sleeping with your wife, (which I do not know), you trusted me in knowing I was a safe and clean woman. I trusted you and you were aware of that fact. You felt relaxed in my company. You were affectionate when we were out in public or at my home. You were the perfect gentleman. All that changed in November.