My First Thoughts After Learning The Truth and The Lies

I wrote this in December 2007 when my heart and soul had been exposed to the real world of Steve John Krantz and things had gotten very ugly.There was not happiness for me during the holiday. I was physically sick and needed a doctor's care. One should never experience such an awful feeling.

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I finally met a man who simply "Took my breath away". He was very special. I knew within 10 minutes that this was someone I could give my heart to. I had met him through one of the websites, thinking, it was the usual dinner date. He held my attention the whole time.During the following weeks, he was the perfect gentleman and he also loved me. I have never been so happy.But now the relationship with him has ended. It ended because I was hurt and I was selfish. When you are hurting, you are prone to doing stupid things.I hurt someone that loved me. Ironically, he is the only man I have loved in 30 years.I now feel a deep void in my being that longs for the comfort of his embrace. I miss the calls he made everyday,just to say that he loved me. He gave me what he could, which was his heart. I really did not expect much more. Sometimes that unique person with their love joins your Inner Circle for only a short time, but gives you back the will to restore your Soul.
My Dearest, I know you loved me because, you loved me the way no other has.You held me so tightly because, you did not want to leave. I loved you for who you were. You wanted an evnironment where you could completely be yourself and receive the real love that was lacking in your life. It had become a strain to "keep up an appeareance" in your marriage. I am aware that you now feel obligated to staying in the marriage because of circumstances. One day,I hope you find the love that you need so that your soul and spirit are at peace and those gorgeous brown eyes sparkle.
I loved you from the first moment I met you. I thought I was going to just have dinner with a man who wanted a dinner date. I got a surprise when I met you.
I will always love you Steven John Krantz, you were very special. When we were together, I always treated you with love and respect; and you were always very attentive and a gentleman toward me.